A very happy new years

So a lot has changed since the last time I posted something up here for the world to see. School is out, work isn't all that great (well that part hasn't changed), and I have a new boyfriend. We have met the families, talked endlessly and I watched as he made very thoughtful gestures that made me want to cry because they were so sweet. I haven't had the chance to tell the people that I usually share this kind of information with on a regular basis throughout my life. (not that its very long but listening to my stories you would think I lived forever). So where exactly do I start? Oh, right...the beginning.

As a few of you may know I was still recovering from a break-up of a long term relationship that was supposed to be my last seeing as though he wanted to "be with me forever" hahaha remember that line ladies? I have heard it many times before and eventhough I am only 20 as of Nov 4th of 2010 I have been proposed to by a handful of guys. (don't ask). So I'm getting over my ex and starting a new job. It was about a month and a half in so I was getting the hang of the job but still having fun meeting people. I had some cool managers and some not so cool. Some co-workers who were my kind of people and others who were a bit too much for tv if you know what I mean (secret sluts is what I mean). Im just in the men's section folding levi's when i see someone looking at them. I didn't see a nametag so i assumed that he was a customer. And being the awesome employee that I am I greeted him with our MAGIC tecnique and asked if he needed help. He then informed me that he worked there and was helping me fold levi jeans. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO then me being the talkative and freindly person I am asked how he liked the job and when he started ect ect. But after a while I noticed that I was holding most of the convo. But i didn't mind because I love to talk. And I like to observe people when I talk to them to see if I'm getting on their nerves and he just sat there and smiled while working and laughed at all my jokes and stuff.

I didn't realize that he even thought I was pretty, but he did and because my job has the worst scheduling ever we didn't see eachother for a while. When we did see eachother again he talked a lot more the next time. We decided not to exchange numbers but we saw eachother the next day and I asked if he was doing anything the next day because I wanted someone to go with me to the zoo for the spanish day festival. So I got his number and told him where to meet me at the station. (and thats how I got his number, take it from me ladies). So our first "date" was the zoo, and he stole my first kiss on our way home on the trains. During our time there he took random pictures of me and he smiled while I got very excited about seeing the elephants.

And fast forward to meeting his parents before halloween and hanging out with them on halloween, (which was awesome!) we went trick or treating! and we ended up going as the corpse bride and he was the scream face with a tux looking all cute ^^. Then on Thanksgiving I met his father side of the family and his lovely grandmother. About a week before christmas I went to his house to decorate their christmas tree and his parents have the cutest tradition and they buy a new ornament for each year that they have been together. And since this was our first christmas together they made us out the 1981 ornament on together. Part of his christmas gift from me was a 2010 ornament for our first christmas together (along with a playlist of songs that reminds me of him). And then on christmas day I met his mother's side of the family. Both sides have a lot of siblings which means countless cousins to meet. And everyone knows that I'm the girlfriend and whatnot (before it was even official on new years ^^). Another fast forward and new years we didn't get to see eachother but we did talk on the phone and changed our relationship status on facebook. hahahaha it seems like such a big deal to people but this was the easiest was for us to put it out there and we are not ashamed at all. We are happy and started over together in the new year! P.S. my mom loves him and my dad can actually remember his name! and my sisters love anyone but they really like him. All family members check! and that was my very hapy new years day story

stupid jobs

ok guys imback at it again but this time with a more angry post.........grrrrrrrrrrr

anyway my job is like totally blowing me man! why don't they give memore hours! im about to get a second job because this is just rediculous man! (notice that i am using a lot of exclamation points...its because im angry) i swear im gonna be a traitor to macy's and go work for jc penny's, ross, and marshalls all at the same time. they are all inn the same mall so why not? i got a job offer at chipotle but i know that will never work out seeing as though i love them way too much! i dnt want to see something in the back that makes me want to eat other places like the infamous baja fresh! (gasp oh no!) btw they suck and the tortillas taste like crap. much like the comparison of subway and quiznos, mcdonalds and burgerking............who makes the most money and taste better and has more ppl there is better! majority wins! which is funny seeing as though i am a monority :( but i love being black with the tiny bit of native american i have inside me^^.

so back to macy's...they need to give me hours before other places see my awesomeness as a threat and ask me to join them instead. then i will comensce with the quitting and flipping of the bird. (especially to the one manager that literally everyone hates...who shall remain nameless until i quit officiall) hope you had fun reading and leave me some comments awesome readers!

ok so a few ppl said they would read it if i started a blog and mayb ill start vlogging later but for now let me stick with the writing...i do that best ^^ this is going to be so random but i have been around this girl at my job that is so ghetto that sometimes i sound like her and if you know me ghetto is not a word that describes me...at all. i swear that if i say one more thing with a accent that isn't mine at all im going to scream! she is cool and everything but geeze i cant stand it sometimes. and the foul things that come out of her mouth...:/ i swear everytime she says something i want to cleanse myself and im not the holliest of ppl. like do you ever feel as though you should pop a grown person in the mouth? that is how i feel everytime im with her. but she not gonna change and i shouldnt expect her to. oh well hopefully she will grow out of it later in life. and sometimes being around her has its advantages like looking like the cute tiny good girl who has to control her obscene friend.

another thing is why do ppl feel as though they should tell their life stories to everyone they know? me personally i am a closed book and my deepest feelings are rarely known...unless im very sleepy (my version of being drunk) lol. dont ppl look so weird when they are spilling out their guts and stuff and your just sitting there trying to figure out what is going on in the crazy head on their shoulders. anyway i have to go now because this is all the time i have and bye guys ask me a question and i will answer as best as i can! peace!

its been a year ^^

OMG i feel so guilty that I haven't used my blogging page that I set up for my ap lit class in 12th grade in almost a whole year. I'm not even sure why I haven't since I absolutely love to write and such. So many things have happened since then. I have started school at PGCC and trying to get some classes out of the way so that I can eventually transfer out to a University. I was accepted into a lot of different schools and got into just about all of them. I can't remember which one I didn't get into actually. ^^

My original goal was to go to Salisbury University and i was so excited until the issue of money came about. Well bottom line I'm not there and I'm looking for a job but not all hope is lost! I could get a job with Verizon wireless and they pay for school if you work for them so hopefully that goes well! I'm still with my high school sweetheart Joshua and we are totally happy together. He loves my family and they love him too.

The reason for me getting back on my blogging page was to basically get back into some casual writing with no one in particular listening. I know it sounds a little crazy like I'm talking to myself but i swear I'm not lol. Plus this helps me with my writing later when i sit down to do novels an poetry. OK folks I'm done for today so ill talk to you dudes later!.....skaters! lol

3rd quarter reflection

When I was first starting out with my papers in AP lit i had no clue what 2 expect. I was just getting a feel for the "snappy" openers ad thesis statements are my worst enemy. Its seems simple but I make simple things so complicated sometimes because I want so badly for it to be perfect. I was determined to be different with my subject for my pancake paper when we read Othello. My papers weren't bad but they do much to keep the attention of the reader I'm guessing. I wanted to expand my vocabulary more but neglected to in my writing. In my comparison paper for "their eyes" and "Wuthering heights" the comparison was very odd but it basically explained the same theory in a completely different fashion. Widening my vocabulary is sometimes difficult to me. I already speak better than most of the people I know so it presented a bit of a challenge to me. Reading the books thoroughly made my writing better 3rd quarter.

I'm not really sure what to expect as far as the AP exam. I believe i need to focus on the plots and other details in books that i didn't read thoroughly. My strengths are in the books that I understand the most. I read to really focus on dissecting poetry.

The book that I enjoyed the most was Wuthering Heights. Since i read it over the summer I didn't have to read it as thoroughly but I did catch some things that I missed in my random summer reading list. I think I liked it the most because of the "Gothic" novel feel and it reminded me of the works of Edgar Allan Poe (one of my favorite poets). I love the fight between nature and man and how the ending was eventually what was supposed to happen and also what we wanted.

comparison paper.

Now a days you can see that women have a lot of power in the home, the work place, and even in politics. Women had to triumph over many struggles such as men believing that they were the "inferior" sex to get where are. Some men never thought to think of the men who started wars because they were so powerful. Wuthering Heights and Their Eyes Were Watching God are both stories that show how powerful certain women can be and what it took to gain their current power. Both authors use devices such as theme, narration, and character analysis to illustrate how powerful women can be.

In both stories there is a controversy with society and nature. Both Janie and Catherine both chose which one they were going to rival. Catherine knew who she loved but decided to go against nature and marry for money. In the end this was her downfall but if she hadn't made this mistake the second generation wouldn't have had Cathy who chose to go against society and be with the one she loved.Nature always prevails and Catherine's mistake had a greater purpose and made a stronger woman to stand up to society eventually change what is "right and wrong" in the eyes of society.

Janie first listened to what society said was good for her but then she decided that nature knew better and she continued to follow her heart. The first move she made on her own wasn't a very good judgement but like Catherine her mistake made her future strong and gave her knowledge to understand more. When she entered into her last relationship it was the smartest decision yet but it ended badly. Even though this happened she had power that was unthinkable at the time and she went through a lot to get it.

Hurston illustrates how far Janie came by allowing her to tell her own story from her first kiss to the day she came home in nothing but overalls. The way she told her story and left no details out showed how strong she was after she endeared all of this. She went through death, trust issues, heart-ache, abuse, and verbal restraint. All of which eventually made her a better person in the end. Her natural beauty made her powerful but her head-strong manner added to this power she harbored. When her husband died she was not only free but rich, which made her even more desirable to the men of the town.

Bronte took a different approach when it came to the narration of Catherine. Instead of letting Catherine tell her won tale she put it in the hands of a maid and friend Nelly. Nelly's narration was told inside of Lockwood's narration which made it a bit sketchy forcing the reader to make up the story in their own mind. You have to figure out what you do and don't believe, and what could possibly be exaggerated. Because Nelly was the non-objective insider she could have added things to the real story to make it sound more pleasing to her ear. Lockwood was a bit more practical seeing as though he was a man and didn't know anything except for what Nelly told him while they were talking. When it came to the story of Wuthering Heights and Thruscross Grange we had to trust the words of Nelly. Lockwood only had his own narration for the present. (his encounter with Catherine's ghost, Heathcliff, and the beautiful girl in the foyer).

When Bronte created Catherine's character she made her wild, childish, and partly superficial, but she had her own mind. She didn't become superficial until she was put in a different world were money was no object. There she met someone who could give her what she wanted (when it came to material things) and Heathcliff couldn't measure up in that department. He was a simple gypsy boy with no money and no civilized learning. Catherine's visit to Thruscross Grange made her stuck-up but she still had the essence of wild child when it came to her temper and utter amusement.

Before she met the Linton family she didn't care about society, she loved Heathcliff so much that she told Nelly that he was her, literally an essential part of her. They grew up together and if she had just followed her heart she could have saved so much heart-ache, death, and social issues. The destruction that she caused illustrated how powerful this one woman was even long after she died. Her influence on the people lives who she left behind were simply incredible. you can decipher whether that was a good or bad thing.

Hurston took a different route with Janie's unique character. In Their Eyes Were Watching God the people in Janie's life influenced her instead of her influencing them. Each and every significant character shaped Janie's personality and built her strength over the years. Her grandmother showed her how sacred the bond of marriage was at a young age but she didn't understand until she got to her second marriage. Since she was still so young with her first husband she easily left him when she got miserable and had an opportunity to do so. She became one of the women who was the "mule of the world" (as her grandmother once told her) and was controlled by her husband for 20 years. His death led to her freedom and she was back to no BS Janie but was no longer the victim of naive adolescence. After she found herself she finally found true love and acceptance.

Both Hurston and Bronte told stories that made people realize how powerful women really are in two completely different fashions. Both ways were intriguing and affective. No one could miss the point that Catherine and Janie were both very strong females who went through trials and tribulation to get the life they wanted. Every mistake had a purpose in the end and you can almost create a story in your mind if you think "what if this didn't happen?" and have your own alternate ending to both stories. If Catherine had married Heathcliff from the start or if she never had got bitten by the dog what would have happened?. If Janie had finished school like her grandmother originally wanted her to do what kind of person would she have become?

reflection quarter 2

The second quarter for me was a definite challenge. We stepped it up with reading novels that were a bit more challeging than the others we read earlier this year. I don't know about the other AP students but the book Crime and Punishment proposed a huge challenge for me. I had to use a lot of helpers and talk to some people to understand what the story meant. Overall it was a very good book and I was excited to find out that my teacher was behind me in the reading even though I'm sure she had a better reason to be than I. Mrs.Ahearn has classes and papers to grade while I mixed reading for class with reading for pleasure. Reading for pleasure was something I did a lot more.

My weakness is actually the same and has gotten worse this quarter. Me reading other books more than the books I was supposed to and it getting in the way of my educational reading for class. I think it may have gotten worse over time. I spend the majority of my paycheck on Borders Books and I have read about five different series each containing more than four books. The older novel I had to read last seemed to dull in comparison so it was a bit harder for me to read. But then i was upset because the moral of the story was actually more exciting than the story itself. It seemed as though you needed it acted out or read out loud to be good like a Shakespeare play.